Many people believe that beauty and self-esteem go hand in
hand. We can look at the media and see
many beautiful, successful individuals that seem to be self-assured and poised,
certain of their influence and confident in their own bodies and image . How can I, someone with deformities and
blemishes from Rheumatoid Arthritis, become confident and feel that I am a
beautiful person?
Beauty is seen as both outward and inward. Outward beauty is very subjective and differs
greatly from person to person. We can
look at celebrities, the fashion industry, and magazines to find examples of socially
curated outward beauty in the clothes, makeup, hairstyles that are
displayed.
Confucius said, “Everything
has beauty, but not everyone can see it.” Inner
beauty isn’t seen on a person’s outside (except maybe in someone’s smile J). Anurag Prakash Ray said, “The real beauty doesn't lie in a person’s face or physical
appearance, it lies in their heart.”
That being said, doing things to help yourself feel beautiful can really help with inner beauty and self-esteem.
I’ve noticed the times I’ve felt more beautiful, I spend a
bit more time grooming and taking care of myself. I don’t spend a lot of time applying makeup
to increase my self-esteem, I spend time applying makeup to try to match my
self-esteem.
My beauty routine and my self-esteem have changed a lot over
the last 15 years. I have gone from
feeling like I haven’t been good enough for self-esteem, to being confident and
feeling gorgeous. I have gone from wearing only lip balm and
eyeliner, to spending 30 minutes or more on makeup routines, and then somewhere
in between. I can remember a few years
ago, we were getting ready to take family pictures. I had my hair done up nicely, but I had on
very little makeup. For several months I
had been wearing only eyeliner as my makeup.
As we were helping kids get dressed and hair done for pictures, I looked
in the mirror and noticed that I had really bad “butterfly rash” on my face,
and it looked like I had raccoon eyes. I
asked to borrow my sister’s makeup to cover up the redness. I don’t know why I hadn’t really noticed it
before, but after that day, I have been wearing more and more makeup to help
conceal my red face.
Why is my face red?
Pick a reason, any reason.
Medication side effects, sun sensitivity, flushed skin from slight
fever, you name it. But that’s not the
purpose of this post…
I’m not always up to date on the latest fashion and trends,
but I do like to look nice and not old fashioned. I like reading tutorials on applying makeup,
I read product reviews, and I like trying new products. Last week, I wore some pretty crazy makeup to
work to celebrate Halloween. I followed
some tutorials for bold makeup looks and I thought I had it pretty
extreme. I had dark eyeshadow and heavy
eyeliner and really dark lipstick. I
thought I looked ridiculous, but I actually got several compliments on how
pretty I looked. Maybe I will go a
little bolder on my everyday look from now on.
I need to focus on my face a bit more to detract from my extra weight. Oh yeah, I need to write about that too… But
not today.
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| Halloween face! No idea who the kid is, but it's a fun photobomb! |
I’ve decided to subscribe to a couple of beauty item
subscription boxes to see if I can come across some products that are easy for
me to use and will help me create a great look to help me feel more
beautiful. I will keep you posted on
what I can find.
Riley
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